Spring Thing!!

So I'm currently doing extreme spring cleaning. If you know me you know I have quite the extensive wardrobe! So my shopping habit maybe your treasure. I'm selling a bunch of stuff and will be posting it here over the next few days! If you see anything you are interested in buying or have any questions just shoot me an email

Faith 21/Forever 21 black sequin one shoulder dress 2x. New with tags, never worn. Knee length, sequins, lined with polyester. $15.00

Gold sequin Torrid halter. Size 2x. New with tags, never worn. Polyester lined. $15

Silver sequin Torrid halter. Size 2x. New with tags, never worn. Polyester lined. $15

Torrid black and silver chiffon cami. Size 1x. New with tags, never worn. $5

Torrid lace trimmed flower cami lot. Orange, yellow, and green. Size 1x. New with tags, never worn. 50% cotton, 50% polyester. $15 for all 3!

Torrid tube tops. Red and White with hearts and skull & crossbones. Size 1x. New with tags, never worn. $15

White Red Cherry Print Pleated Skirt white pleated skirt featuring an allover red cherry print and red ribbon trim at the waist. Back zip entry. 23" long. 97% cotton. 3% spandex. Size 22. Only worn twice!! $10

"You got knocked the f*uck out!"

You remember that line from Friday...that's how I felt after my first day of work. I thought I was ready for it...M** handed me my ass on a platter!! Okay so let me just say I love M**, I've always wanted to work for them but it's not what I'm used to!! I've always been amazing at any work that I've done...always (when I work I werk!!!) I think since I haven't worked for so long I've lost a lot of my, how do I say it, tolerance for putting up with people's bullshit!
These my first face was a regular to the counter who is used to being done a certain way, I didn't know it and I sure as hell don't have all the skill (yet) to do what she wanted! Her English also wasn't great but I know enough Spanish to understand my work was being torn apart...but she was okay about it and it was fixed.
Second face, she wanted simple, no foundation, a smoky eye, and some blush...yes, that I can handle! Ohhhh until the obnoxious wedding party (I'm not going to say what nationality they are but no matter where I am the women always always hate on me!!) that was around starting saying how bad my work was and to get someone else to do it and the girl started to question my work!! I didn't even finish it. I feel like I let myself get beat down and defeated!! So I'm going to hold off (hell since I freelance it doesn't matter) work at it some more, and come back with a fucking vengeance!!!
I don't lose!

On another note, of course I was cute with the signature red lips!!

Faith in Forever 21

So you may or may not know this about me but I'm very picky about my clothes, their quality, and where they come from...years in retail will do that to you!! Well recently Forever 21 came out with a plus size line called Faith 21, it's not available in all of the forever 21 stores but you can order online (something that I do not like to do!). And I know F21 is hit or miss in the quality department, but I stumbled upon the giant known as the Forever 21 in Times Square, which has it's own Faith 21 section.



This store is a huge giant by the way! It's in the spot of the old Virgin Mega Store and it is still a huge 4 stories and gorgeous!!



Well the point of this (now turning into a) long winded post is I made my first clothing purchases at F21 and here's what I got!!

Wow oh wow

So I finally (since I last posted) got my Nikon D90, I'm no Stephen Albanese (even though after talking with him awhile ago he said it would be a great camera for me) but maybe I'll get there. It's stepped my picture taking game up but I still have far to go!!

Work please!

Yup I think I'm rejoining the ranks of the working class! So I've been very anti work for the past year. I am not as lazy as I seem! When I work I work and it's my priority!
I really want this new gig, I don't want to talk about it too much because I don't want to jinx it! They've been wanting me to work for them for a few years (I wasn't willing to leave the old gig for it, I should have!) and recently we've been trying to make it happen but there's been a few bumps in the road.
But whatever I think eventually things will fall into place and I'm looking forward to them doing so!

Man oh man!

Yes, man. So there was a guy I let into my life, even though he's on my list of "never mess with a..." list. It's been awhile since we've dealt with each other but what he does for a living crosses with my life a few times a week so I have to deal with him no matter what.
So there's been a big drastic change in that recently and it has me in a royal ass grouchy mood. How am I letting him still affect my life? Like really!? And what could possibly be going on with him I wonder if it was a part of his life when I was a part of it?!
I never ever regret anything I've ever done in my life. He is included in that! But sometimes I think "He made me something that I never wanted to be!"

I adored him for him not for what he was or what he did. I wonder if he'll ever realize that. Guess what I think I'm kinda sad that I don't know if we'll ever see each other again




(ds)

uneventful

the story of my life

sometimes I don’t get how I have the most boring life ever. for someone who has so many “friends” I really don’t have any. my work defined my life way more than I wanted it to and way more than I realized it until it was gone.

what did I do today?? I got up at 2ish, got way too dressed for no reason, and did pretty much of nothing for the vast majority of my day. what am I dong now? the same nothing I’ve been doing all day.

sometimes I wonder if I didn’t exist, or better yet if I just disappeared would anyone really care to notice. I always say if I died no one, not one person would say “I just lost the love of my life”

and I’m tired of all that “life is what you make of it bullshit” I’m very well aware of that but you can only make so much depending on where you are.

and another thing. I miss my camera. as much as I hated it I miss it. really as uneventful as my life is right now I really should just drop a good $800 on a camera, at least it would give me something to do.

and on the work front even with this new gig how much in reality am I going to be doing

and my comfort zone, the one thing or people who have been stable (as stable as they can be) won’t or is it don’t want me around off of something that shouldn’t be as big of a deal as it is. yes people its pretty painfully fucking heartbreaking as much as I probably never have admitted openly

maybe I should try drugs